Brokenness

Brokenness: what does it mean? Webster’s dictionary gives the following definitions for broken: “violently separated into parts, damaged or altered by breaking; having undergone or been subjected to fracture; disrupted by change; made weak or infirm; subdued completely; reduced in rank.” Brokenness is something the Lord has been teaching me to accept, forcing me to experience. Of the definitions previously listed, I was particularly fond of “disrupted by change.” Of course, brokenness is typically associated with recognizing that we are weak and sinful; as a response to these qualities, we are to submit humbly in fear of a holy God who still chooses to adore us.  But for me, I have seen brokenness made clear by disruption and change, and as a result have recognized my weak and sinful state. I am not one to like change.  In fact, I often grow distressed and depressed by it. But change is good. Change is usually a tool used to make me grow in dependence on the Lord’s provision. And this month, change has caused a major sense of brokenness in me. Even though I may not like these new trials I am walking through, I take joy in them, rejoicing, knowing that they are producing patience (James 1:2) and causing a broken spirit within me.  “For You do not desire sacrifice, or else I would give it; You do not delight in burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart— these, O God, You will not despise.” Psalm 51: 16-17. Oh God, I am nothing. I am undone before You. Thank You, Lord, that my broken heart is a sacrifice to You.